1. |
Echo (Binary Star)
03:50
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And we spun
A pair making one
Wrapped in our orbit
Bathed in each other's light
Through space's
Formless embrace
No destination
Nothing to stop our flight
So we danced
As we advanced
Drifting away from all the others
Out into the empty and dark
Unmoving sea
Was it joy or fear that kept us paired
Ever-turning, unaware
Of the galaxy we crossed
Each looming planet that we passed
Was a blur that wouldn't last
Never found but never lost
There in darkness lay the beast
A gaping void awaiting feast
Its pull was subtle, but drew us in:
Too self-absorbed to see, too powerless to win
So I flew,
Still dancing with you
Down towards the danger
Into the creature's sight
My fate
I realized too late:
Never escaping
Losing a hopeless fight
So I cried
Out in surprise
Sinking away from all the others
Down into the hungry and black
Unending feast
Was it love or anguish that you felt
As you swung around our belt
And became the creature's prey
As you sunk deep into that snare
We were fractured as a pair
Inertia carried me away
(You're falling, you're falling, you're falling and you're falling
To the unknown forever
Our final spin together)
(I'm flying, I'm flying, I'm flying and I'm flying
Far from the life I'd practiced
I'm breaking off our axis)
I've flown for eons out into the endless sea
Beholding wonders I could scarcely ever dream
And for a moment I can see
Your echo gleaming in the dark
I miss you so
My falling star
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2. |
Coming Home
04:03
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Lit another cigarette and
I watched the ashes fall
Standing there outside the hotel
My back against the wall
And I know you're all worried for me
Ashamed of the failure I turned out to be
Setting your sights, taking your aim
Shifting your weight and dodging the blame
But there is nothing more I care to do to try
and stop your haughty stares
I would only find a waiting cell if I went back there
When I said I was coming home, I lied
I'm twisted up inside
and dying to get out
So I'm gone, I'm putting it in drive
and getting out alive
No backward glances now
You'll never see me again
Going faster down the freeway,
the sun against my face
No direction or incentive
But my own relentless pace
I don't want to stop, maybe I won't
I'll drive till I die, right here on the road
No need to cry, no need to care
Nothing to feel when there's nobody there
Sometimes in the dead of night, I feel as though the walls are closing in
How far will I have to go to free me from my skin?
When I said, I was coming home I lied
I'm twisted up inside
and dying to get out
So I'm gone, I'm putting it in drive
and getting out alive
No backward glances now
I've been having this dream, when I can sleep
That there are weights tied to my feet
The farther I go, the harder it gets
Sinking into my regrets
When I said I was coming home I lied
I'm twisted up inside
and dying to get out
And you'll never see me again
No, no, no
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3. |
Still
05:04
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Tears well up in Jackie's eyes as she recounts how she relapsed again,
and we all let her speak
I turned my 3-months-sober chip in at the end of last week, so I'm no better
Even now the room still spins, the wage of sin I guess
How could I put so much in, just to begin again?
But still we try
But still we try
Cause on the nights I lie awake
And hear the bottle call my name
I see my daughter's face
And dig my heels in
They lowered her into her grave
I was swimming in a black dress
And I hid my eyes and tried to look away
That barren ground, my father's tears
When I close my eyes I see them
Unimpeded by the passing of the years
And still I cry
And still I cry
Cause on the nights I lie awake
And hear the bottle call my name
I see my mother's grave and dig my heels in
Cause on the night I lie awake
And hear the bottle call me name
I see my daughters face and dig my heels in
And now as Jackie dries her eyes
I take her shaking hand in mine
And tell her what I know we all are feeling
That still we cry
But we keep fighting on
We keep fighting on
We keep fighting on
We keep fighting on
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4. |
A Thief's Lament
04:35
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Lurking in the dark
Looking for the perfect mark
You think you've found the one
So grip the handle of your gun
and move to block your target's way
Hide your shaking hands
As you tell him your demands
He doesn't seem to care
He merely grits his teeth and stands there
Show him your pistol to persuade
But suddenly he leaps at you, a blur of motion, unexpectedly
Your muscles tense
Your fingers twitch
Your pistol screams
So run away, before they find the scene, oh no
There's never any safety for a thief
Sitting in your home
Shivering and all alone
Your eyes upon the door
Waiting for the cops to come for
You, and take it all away
Yet they never do
The only thing that visits you is
Solitary blame
You didn't even know his name
But now, you've put him in his grave
And sometimes in the shadows you could swear you see him
Staring silently
His face is grave
And his eyes appear to gleam
There's never any comfort for a thief, oh no
There's never any comfort for a thief
Soon every moment is filled by his stare
You're shaking, repeating "He's not really there. "
Until, at last, you cannot stand the eyes that pierce within
You turn yourself in
But even in your cell you find his watching eyes
Will give you no relief
You cannot run
From what you've done
And what you've seen
There's never any mercy for a thief, oh no
There's never any mercy for a thief
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5. |
Capsize
03:07
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We spent the summers in a boat
Made out of ignorance and hope
Ignored the waves as they would crash against our skin
And though our so-called paradise
Was built atop a bed of lies
Still we persisted as we called each other kin
And in the end
My fragile friend
We both went under
But at least we drowned as one
And as we landed on the shore
As we had many times before
You turned to me and shed an old, familiar tear
With shaking hands and pleading eyes
You gave me your best alibis
And I, in turn, gave you the words you longed to hear
With battered souls
We played our roles
But for a moment I wished
I could tell you
No, I'll refuse to place the blame this time
You refuse to apologize
We'll just let this ever-sinking ship capsize
No more weary days and sleepless nights
No more self-destructive compromise
We'll just let this ever-sinking ship capsize
We headed back into the waves
For we were young and we were brave
And in our innocence we swore we'd make it right
So we rebuilt our broken boat
With rotting wood and fraying rope
And we continued to attempt our fruitless fight
Again we tried
Against the tide
To sail to freedom
But our efforts were in vain
And so again we fell apart
And as we floated to the start
You turned to me and told me how I'd made it fail
And as I studied you, my friend
I realized that we couldn't mend
The pieces well enough to make the vessel sail
So worn and bruised
It's time we choose
To plunge it under
I began to tell you
No, you refuse to place the blame this time
I'll refuse to apologize
We'll just let this ever-sinking ship capsize
No more weary days and sleepless nights
No more self-destructive compromise
We'll just let this ever-sinking ship capsize
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6. |
Paper Stitches
03:46
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Our fragile peace has cracked again
The timeless laceration stings
And I am summoned to your side
My heart, it suffers but it sings your name
And we go on
Your mind has torn you down to shreds
Your paper stitches strain and burst
I'll stop the bleeding as I can
I'm used to waiting for the worst
I stay
And we go on
If as you thrash, you wound me too
Of what concern is that to you?
And if it hurts, my lips are tight
My silence gets us through the night
I try to hand you cradled hope
my shaking fingers strain to hold
I've seen the glimmers through the fog
But all that glitters isn't gold
Be well
Be well
Be well
Farewell
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7. |
I. Lost In The Woods
05:19
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Lying awake surrounded by her second guesses
Counting her odds before at last she acquiesces
Her family slumbers below
She is scared of what they know
There in the dark she gathers up her few possessions
Her diary riddled with her sins and her transgressions
Some food, some cloth, some string
Is all that she can bring
And slowly but surely,
silently slipping down the stairs
she makes it to the door
And she takes a final look
back at all that she's
about to leave before
She slips away from her shattered haven to the wind's infernal roar, oh
The silent moon and the ever voiceless stars observe her flight
And trace her form in shallow light
Into the woods she treads, so aimless and uncertain
Hiding herself behind an elemental curtain
The trees will be her shield
And keep her well-concealed
But in her haste to flee she loses her direction
The heat of the moment overcomes her recollection
The pathways turn and twist
But still the girl persists
A tangle of branches suddenly snares her ankle and it starts to pull her down
There's a rush of pain as her captive ankle snaps and as she hits the ground
She begins to realize she is stranded where she likely won't be found, oh
She tried to stand, but her leg gives out and she begins to cry
But only wind and rain reply
The callous moon and the apathetic stars observe her plight
But do not move to ease her fright
So she waits in terror through a sleepless night
Where hope and vision both are slight
Finally dawn arrives and grants her morning's rays
And standing above her in the red and orange haze
Is a figure, fair and sleek
Who then begins to speak...
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8. |
II. The Devil's Bargain
04:36
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Hopeless and lost
Alone and afraid
A twisted up mess
Of young and naive and betrayed
From the path you have strayed
Deep in the woods
It's harder to feel
That you've got a grip
On which of the shadows are real
Join me and I will reveal them
Swear, swear you'll be true
As the moon-kissed waves upon the shore
And I will make it right
Close, close your eyes
Like the setting sun becomes the dusk
And I will drown out the light
And pull you into the night
Out in the cold
With nowhere to turn
You silently long
To gracefully flicker and burn
When will you learn?
Sit on my throne
And stay by my side
I'll give you a place to
To drink and to warm and to hide
But be warned, I shall not be defied
Swear, swear you'll be true
As the moon-kissed waves upon the shore
And I will make it right
Close, close your eyes
Like the setting sun becomes the dusk
And I will drown out the light
And pull you into the night
In your eyes, a flash of red
You are ever in my debt
Follow me beneath the dark
On your skin I leave my mark
Swear, swear you'll be true
As the moon-kissed waves upon the shore
And I will make it right
Close, close your eyes
When the setting sun becomes the dusk
And I will drown out the light
And pull you into the night
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Seeing Spots Durham, North Carolina
Raised by and around musicians, Sam Heitzer is a singer, songwriter, and one-woman-band. Under the moniker Seeing Spots, she creates thoughtful but accessible story-songs with rock-tinged musical theater influences.
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